At 3.55am on the 31st December 2009







i was actually ready for bed after my roti prata and milo dinosaur supper but
a sudden rush of thoughts hit in, it's my bad for not doing any proper update
ever since i embarked on a new chapter of my life out of Singapore but school
has taken up so much time that i really had no time to update besides trying
to get debit and credit, statistics formulas and economics graphs into my head.

since i'm back and i'm now a couch potato at home, i thought it'll be good to
bloody hell try my best and churn out a super long entry like how i used to
always do at the end of year, penning down a huge summary of thoughts for the year.

lucky twinny got a temporary job back at her internship company again while
poor me who doesn't have an internship company to begin with has to sit at
home and be nothing but a lazy bummer and seeing my account running dry.

three years of playing around PBL at RP ended in February, i'm really glad i
entered RP into with a course a lot of people i knew of in common year was dying
to get in, oops but you've got no idea how proud i am to be part of SOH - DIEM!
and of course, the friends i met in my common year saw me through my entire
three years in RP and if not for them i think i might have had withdrew from
school long long time ago without hesitation and probably fly off to Aussie.
the friends i met in DIEM are equally wonderful that it made me even more certain
that i didn't made the wrong choice of withdrawing and heading over to Aussie.

someone so important left me in February, the one i've treated her as my
soulmate and it's none other than my house's domestic helper, Auntie Nami.
it was really hard to let her go especially when she has been by my side
for near to eight years, she has become an integral part of my life.
even now, i still do think of her, wondering which part of this world she
is now in but i know this question will forever be a question that can't be
answered unless miracles happen but i doubt i'll ever see her down the years.

i know if she knows i'm with Mr Pang now, she'll be extremely happy for me.

i had my first overseas trip without parental guidance with the polyfriends and
even though the trip had its ups and downs but everything eventually boils down
to good communication, give and take and not holding grudges against any one.
that trip was a worthwhile one even though i spent the most on shopping alone.

two new domestic helpers came into my life but somehow the Lee Family's luck
of getting nice helpers weren't here, one did so many things behind our backs
and one complained that the house's too ahem for her to clean up everything.

my Graduation Ceremony would be one of the best days marked on my 2009 calendar.
i'll never forget the excitement of meeting the coursemates i've not met for
quite awhile and the anxiety of going up the stage to receive my diploma
certificate with an outstanding module prize and my queue number being
a number that nobody can ever forget it - four hundred and fifty-sixth.

the biggest reward would be having Lynn, Yvonne, Ally and Tingyin as the
ones who've graduated together with me on that very same day, the girlfriends
who've been here for me and always helping me without turning me down.

next, i don't know if i should give a simple explanation that fate really exists
but whatever it is, i'm really glad i got to know someone better even though we
weren't exactly friends to begin with back in RP, even though the memories were
very little but i'm really glad those memories held me through, thank-you.
even though i know things are no longer the same anymore but i really do hope down
the years you'll still be one of the ones closer to my heart, i always believe
opposites can always have pure friendships and i hope this do not get sensitive.

the dream i have always been yearning for finally came true at the earlier part
of this year, with me going through the various overseas Universities and finally
deciding on the University i would want to spend at least two years over there.
who says going to an overseas University was easy ought to be slapped in the face.
i had such a hard time going through so much things alone, battling the thoughts
in my head and of course considering the huge amount of money the fogies have to
invest but what i'm really thankful is i've got a supportive parents to start with.

two weeks before i left was one of the happiest moments, you've got no idea how
glad i was when Expogang initiated a meet-up and surprisingly most of them turned
up and of course the friends whom i saw taking the effort just to meet me.

i put everything down in SG and flew over to Perth for a new chapter of my life.
it was hard having to adapt to Winter and a foreign environment, having to get
used to the culture and lifstyle of the state and starting everything from scratch.

Mr Pang soon came into my life, somehow me and him weren't friends to begin with
but he heard stories about me and twinny even before we both knew each other and
the one who created the chance for us would be Mr Samuel Neo because if weren't
for him whom i bumped into on the amazing race day, i doubt me and him would
have had the chance to be in the same amazing race team and end up as friends.

i'm thankful for the friends i met in UWA, it's really amazing how fate brought
us all together across the oceans, and the most important thing is the difference
i see in them, no i'm not comparing but i've to admit NS do really change men.

guys before NS can actually stoop to a level of childishness i can never
comprehand, to the extent of comparing the brand of handphones and boycotting
the odd one out and even putting a man's manhood to risk - sorry i recalled
this because i just watched the nine pm, the guy having his manhood destroyed.

okay this shouldn't be in this topic but nevermind.

the last time i was hospitalised was probably the day i was brought into this
world and i broke the record of getting myself hospitalised in Perth for a night.
i survived six days without food and little water that i collapsed on the sixth
day while brushing my teeth in the morning that the sister had no choice but to
go against my wish by bringing me to the hospital for a drip that i was afraid of.
this incident made me realised the importance of staying healthy especially
during crucial periods - like say three weeks before the final examinations.

it was a tough period but i think it has made me learnt to be a stronger person.
anyhows, it's over since i've made it through my first year in UWA.

the stay in Perth and coming back to SG for my summer holidays has also made
me realised that friends come and go, the ones who stay are only a handful
ones whom you can really trust upon while the ones who've drifted apart are
the ones you aren't close right from the beginning, no i'm not sad about the
change because i've all along come to accept the fact that nothing lasts.
i'm not surprised down the years, there'll be more of friends come and go
situations but all i can say is, cherish the present and don't make regrets.

a new year's about to unfold, time flies isn't it?

it'll soon be back to Perth again and Summer beckons.
Winter please don't come so soon i beg of you.

my only new year resolution is, i'm tired of having short hair.
i'm gonna have my hair grow long and get my curly hair back!

and of course i can't gain more weight anymore otherwise Mumsie's gonna
have me sent home to SG and go for weight-slimming programme, i kid you not.

sorry Mr Pang, i know my moods haven't been good lately.

till then, i'll see you guys in 2010!
we've come so far
just to keep the flame alive
i feel rather : okay.

She penned her thoughts down at 3:55 AM

She penned her thoughts down at 1:51 AM

2010 Calling



2009 is coming to an end, it's time to sit down for a cup of coffee and kaya
toast, recall and reflect what you've gone through the whole year, to be
thankful for the good things that happened and for the bad things that happened,
learn from it and make it a point not to make the same mistakes anymore.

i've lost count of how many pictures i haven't upload both on my blog and
facebook but i somehow can't be bothered to upload all because my marginal
utility for a lot of things have decreased drastically down negative range.

i've been going out everyday, even Sundays which i used to think are days meant
for staying home aren't the same anymore, i'm so tired all i want to do is just
to sit and do nothing, and do everything i want at my own comfort and timing.

there are some issues that have been in my thought.

R is a sensitive word, i've always thought it's an excuse that strain
relationships but i've been right smacked that it really matters.

maybe you can talk some sense into me, i'm still clouded by my stubborn-ness.

i've had my fair share of ups and downs this year.

- Graduated from Republic Polytechnic with a Diploma in Integrated Events Mgmt
- Had an awesome Graduation Ceremony although the fogies made negative comments
- Worked part-time and other times playing and playing, eating and eating
- First Overseas trip to Bangkok with the polyfriends - six days five nights
- Had feelings i've never had for a long long time and never thought i would
- Chose overseas University and spent five months in Perth
- And having Mr Pang in my life
- Fight time survived little water and no food for six days
- First time hospitalised for a night in a foreign country
- First time flew to the same country [Bangkok] twice within a year-frame
- First time hanging out everyday for the past one month ever since i'm back
- First time experienced the change from Winter to Spring
- First time gained the most weight

2010, my usual line, no resolutions because the more i write down,
the more i'll curse and accummulate karma for myself only.

however, 2009 has made me learnt the importance of staying healthy, the
importance of cherishing before it's too late, the importance of juggling
studies and other things in life, the importance of appreciate the good.



happy monthsary!
and if we don't step up
we'll loose our groove
i feel rather : okay.

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Fattypang's 22nd

i'm left with exactly two more months in SG and Perth used to remind me
of those beautiful holidays but now it reminds me nothing but school.

i've chosen the majors, what's left is just the planning of the lectures and
tutorials slots and having to include driving lessons in my time-table as well.

i don't know how i'm gonna cope, sigh.

anyways enough of school, last week was the boy's birthday...





hope the birthday boy enjoyed that two days of celebration!

very grateful for the Uni-friends as well!

more updates, um me ain't too sure when that will ever happen.
i'm just waiting to see your smile
i feel rather : okay.

She penned her thoughts down at 1:36 AM

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